iF oNly this HapPen

if i'll be given 10 wishes

-i want to have more money...i'm broke u know...i only have 70cent in my purse

-i want to change my outlook into a beautiful humble girl like cinderella

-i want to have a portion to cure virus h1n1 dat frighten whoever movie maniac like me who love to watch movies like happening,guarantee,and 28weeks later..

-i want to get married with my love without any obstacle..cewahhh macam la aku dok zaman purba..

-i wanna have my degree as soon as possible

-i wanna have a good job right after my degree...

-i want my parent n my family live longer than me so i dont have to suffer losing them...i meant it..

-i want to have at least 2 child after i married

-i wanna support my parent when they old

-i wish everyone will neva erased the memories dat have been created with me when i'm death...

someHow it just a DrEAm

i had a dream to be as thin as pin

i had a dream to get married n have child

i had a dream to take a revenge

i had a dream to reverse time back to my childhood

i had a dream to be blind so i will appreciate my eyes

i had a dream to be like a superstar so i'll be shined

i had a dream to have a big house so i'll be able to hide myself

i had a dream to be as other normal people who appreciate themselves

i had a dream to be a precious daughter

i had a dream a song to sing~

useless zati..

hari ni aku bosan...aku pandang atas ader kipas..aku pandang kiri ader dinding...aku pandang kanan ader cermin..aku pandang bawah ader lantai...arghh bosannye idop...aku bukak laptop..mule2 bukak blog..ader komen...drp miss bibiana..hehe senyum2..then huarrgg nguap besar2...bukak facebook..takde notification pon...bosan lagik..aku tulis shoutout 'ape yg bes kat fb ni?'...aku nguap lagi besar drp tadi...aku log out ..aku tgk email..cis...2 email je..tu pon remainder..aku sign out lik..aku log in frenster...huh lagik bosan...log off lik....hurm log in myspace..hurm ader fren request..6owg lak...mark jelah sume..add...then ader owg komen i miss u..apehal mamat ni...bukak2 profile cis!!..tade owg lain ke..trus delete lik...haha..padan muke ko...

kejam..kejam kan aku..nape aku kejam??sbb die poyo...nape die poyo??..sbb die pasan die macho..nape die pasan macho??sbb die gemokk...n die tak sedar diri..heee aku benci tol owg cmtu...nak taw tak??kebanyakkan laki gemok sgt perasan diri macho...then tak ngaku die gemok..then once kowang da kapel ngan die lg la terserlah kepoyoan die..yg penting kan..sejak aku kenal laki gemok ni..sume perangai same!!SAME siot...ader ye poyo mintak simpati lagi 2thun nak mati sbb ader leukemia la..ader yg saket jantung berlobang..ader yg br pas exsiden ilang ingatan..hais perlu ke simpati murahan ini...tak paham haku...

haku bengang...

ha nape aku tulis bm??sbb aku melayu...bile aku pk aku kne tulis lam bi aku jd malas nak wat blog..so utk tidak memberhentikan mood aku utk berblog..lets bm kan diri...

baru cepat je tangan ni menaip..

hurm aku tulis blog bukan nak ckp pasal dak laki gemok..aku nak ckp pasal pompuan gemok..sape??aku la ngok...aku bosan..aku bosan bercinta..nape??aku pon tataw..aku rase bosan bile bersms bende yg same...aku rase rimas bile berbual fakta yg same..aku rase geram bile bergaduh tiap2 hari...then mesti die mngalah..aku bosan asik menang...walau salah aku aku asik menang je..aku bosan...aku bosan die slalu rendah diri...die ingat tggi sgt ke darjat aku ni..aku bosan..aku bosan bile asik kene tuduh bende yg tak dibuat...dah aku ckp aku syg takkan aku curang kot,aku da tade slere la ngan owg lain..aku bosan lagik..

cmne nak overcome sume ni??aku stop msj...satu jam berlalu...dua jam..tiga jam..aku da mule pandang tilam..tmpt aku cmpak tpn...aku tgk tade sape2 msj n kol...aku bengang..aku buat2 pandang bantal...aku kuar bilik g main ps2..bosan pulak...aku tutup ps2 aku masuk bilik...buat2 pandang bantal..haish mlampau neh..aku buat2 tekan tpn...'hai watpe tu'...send..ala..buat2 tepuk dahi tande menyesal...seminit...2minit...3minit...cepat2 amik tpn tebus lik maruah td...'takpela owg tanak msj kite kan.bye'...senyum dlm hati..puas...eh ni pon tak balas...ni sudah lebey...takpe2 hati dikeraskan..

malam berlalu....

hp tak bunyik2...takpe2....tgk a nt..dendam dah berbukit...msj tetap tade..hati dah berubah..hati sedeh..rase nak nanges...

hati nanges dlm bilik..bilik tu gelap...tade sape pun masuk nak pujok...pintu tak kunci..tapi tade sape nak bukak..eh ape aku mrepek nih...

skang aku sendirik...tade sape temani...aku karangkan blog ini..utk kepuasan sendirik...

Regret..

i have u...
i love u...
u cheer me everyday..
once i woke up i straightly run to u..
u make a really cute face..
i kiss u..
i let u play outside..
u run too fast..
i need to take u inside..
u show ur protest..
but u still smile at me..
u r so sweet..
as time past by..
i need to leave u...
i start to forget u..
i didnt even realize i have u..
then i have being given another chance to show my love again to u..
but i am too stubborn...
i still who i was be4...
the time finally come...
u leave me without warn me..
i'm shocked..
i didnt even had a chance to say gudbye to u..
i didnt had a chance to make u smile be4 u go..
i didnt had a chance to kiss u goodbye be4 u go..
i even didnt had a chance to say ur name out loud..
now u're gone..
i'm lonely..
u used to listen to my story..
but now i have no one to listen to me..
u used to be my fren when i'm sad..
but now i dont have u...
i miss u..
i regret i forget u..
i regret im such an ungrateful fren..
i regret i dont appreciate u..
i regret....

tell me why~its so hard to forget..

Last night i forgot

How the sound of your voice whispered sweet

Goodbyes, your eyes left to die

I'm alone too

I don't stand why

Why not one more night

One last Kiss goodbye

My sweet love tonight

I hope the stars still spell out your name where you are

Kiss my closing eyes

Help me sleep without you I'm so lost

Tonight i cry

Tell me why

I can't live without your warm embrace.

bIg fat bLoated Pumpkin

did u know??its difficult to be cool when u're fat???
its difficult to do anything when u're fat
u cant wear groovy gear
u cant ever look good
u just go around hating urself and trying not to catch sight of ur reflection in shop windows
it does terrible things to ur confidence

food can be real comfort when u're feeling low..trust me!unfortunately, lovely thought it is at the time,food isnt what u would call a permanent source of comfort.It doesnt really last very long..its all right while u're actually eating it and thinking to urself, 'yum2' and not caring about the rest of the world and what u might look like.but then!after a bit it start to down, and u go down as well.

sumtime u are in such despair dat u have to go and even more food to bring urself back up again.

the truth is dat nobody , practically, i shouldnt think ,actually enjoys being fat.

each nite i will made my big decision from now on i was going to stob behaving like human equivalent of dustbin..i was going to slim!!

but once i wake up everything simply going back to wut i was.

yeay back to back!

yeay2 finally i hav my lappy back!!so beware!this author might talking shit every second she hav..yeay2 yeay2

Deal it!!

i just came back from times square dis nite..it had been long time i didnt go there since i'm 20 i guess...i'm actually not a person who love to go to the crowdy place..i like to be alone..because if i am in the middle of the crowd it will turn down my mood really bad..

i saw each of the people come next to me..some with their partner holding hand proudly with the couple t shirt..( i wish u r there)...some laughing extremely with their buddy...some just comfortable to be alone..and some just to bz nagging each other in the middle of the crowd..

then i stopped at the couple accessories shop. before this i dont even look once at that station..but i dont know since when i really attracted to go in there.. all of the item really attract me SO BAD!! all of the cute2 t shirt and key chain all in 2 sets...dats why lah the name of the shop couple accessories kan...so i just cant step out from dat shop..my eyes just keep smiling as my mouth keep bitting..I WANT ONE!!..but as soon as i realize there is only an empty purse in my pocket..even not enough to enter lowyat's toilet..

the stupid evil laughing so hard on my ears..shit!

Am i too emo??

sumtime i wanna cry alone in the dark believe dat sumone might come to wipe out my tears away..

sumtime i wanna be touched on my shoulder and be told to be a good girl because everyone love me..

sumtime i hav a dream dat i'm wearing white gown waiting for my prince charming to pull me up to his horse...

sumtime i just love to wear all black attire everywhere..

sumtime i wanna sit on the road while watching to the sky with a love balloon in my hand floating around on the air..

sumtime i talk with my pet and pretending it heard me...

sumtime i pretend to be invisible while walking down on a busy road..

sumtime i wish i will have my own ride so dat i can drive continuously to the sky..

sumtime when i'm on the flight, i wish i will be given permission to sit alone on the flight's wing so i can be the 1st to inhale the fresh breeze..

sumtime i love to draw a love shape and painted it with black background and small spot of red colour of my name...

sumtime i wish i would have a wing which allow me to fly away from this world.

sumtime i wish i wanna be like benjamin button who will be born as an old baby and will be death as a baby..

sumtime i just wanna hope sumone will be my listener and alwaiz comfort when when my heart hurt real bad...

dat Is sOoOooOo annOyed!!

have u ever had sumone who is in the early age act to be so mummy2 to u..even ur mum didnt told u to wash ur mouth after taking ur lunch..but dis spoilt culprit just too busy taking care MY LIFE!!!

sumtime when u just wanna be so good that day she just spoil it..when u r trying to be nice gigirl in that house dat day, she will turn my mood to be so bad demon!!

she is so mumsy!!dat will be good sumtime..but for the 3 month i cant bear it!!!
please dont treat me as ur child...even mum dont act as u..u just make me wanna run away from this house..

please dear!!just act as urself...the young u..as a fren to me..just be cool..i will love u more than word ...frankie j bebeh..

Dont wake me up even september has ended

tik tok tik tok
the clock seems to move really soooOoOoo slow while my heart seems beating so fast day by day...i'm glad im still alive..thank God..haish i'm not dying or have any decease ok..
finally, i'm already half death in this house about 2 month..1 month to go n i will be going to the war..i miss my bed,i miss my roomate ,i miss my self act as dat u student, i miss the way i completely broke, i miss to have a lot of assignment to be done in a day, i miss to hav chit chat with my fren...i miss everything...

i just wish i have a remote control just like adam sandler on Click..i want to have a click on forward button till the day i'm married...i want to see the way i dress on my wedding..i wanna see my husband of course..and the mostly i wanna see my body!!!is it still me with my baggage or the different of me...and after i satisfied i will click forward button some more and stop at the time i have my own child...it will be the best time in my life!!

wake up zati...zatii.....wake up!!!!

u r now in front of the pc and talking shit in blog and u r still here!!with the extra baggage and the smell of sumting useless student who is still in year 1 of studies and have 3 YEARS TO GO!!

sumhow this fucking worry keep coming to my front door of my not so very heavy brain...i hate it..completely hate it...i just read newspaper this afternoon(yeah rite i just woke up at dat time,holiday remember!!) and i saw an advertisement..is it advertisement??or just an article??uh wat ever...i saw it wrote 'if u dont take ur breakfast ur metabolism low(as all people knew lah kan) n as the effect, after u take ur lunch u will b easily tempted to sleeeeeeeeeeeeepppppp very beauty..as for other effect, u will be easily getting worry...(hah dats it, now i know y i am so easily stress,worry and hurt)..its all becos of just s stupid breakfast!!

but as i think twice(dis is so not me, i'm actually a person who neva think before speak) i see dats not helping me to lose my weight..dat is actually can gain my weight so easily....because i might tend to sleep after i take my breakfast..especially when it is HOLIDAYYYYYY...holiday is a best time to rest up ur mind from de fucking assignment, ur noisy fren , n to pamper ur eyes..

so dont blaim me if u just see me lying on the bed just like a death mummies..dont u ever wake me up!!!!although the september end!!i dont wanna wake up until my holiday is finally end...becos once i wake up everybody just hurt me like a knife through me wildly...so wuts the point to open my eyes to see the damn cruel world rite..i just wanna be alone..shuhhh shuhh

tO The laptop's bEgginner

it nice to have ur own laptop
but u neva know wut will u faced in future
its all about KA-CHING,KA-CHING,KA-CHING

i already tired of this laptop stuff..once its broken n need to be repaired, u will see ur money flew away on the sky....i believe i can fly~

it is fun to download ur fav music,mp3 or muvie..but u have to be so prepared that ur sweetest laptop might have problem on the hardisc.or internal problem.

huwaaa...by the post u will exactly know y i'm continuesly talking this shit..yeah dat right...definitely because my laptop giv me a bad headache...just by changing 1 component i have to have 3digit figure..it is more painful when what u hav change is not really the problem dat cause ur laptop sick..finally ur laptop still uncured because ur silly mistake taking a wrong compenent to be changed...

arghhhh

so to conclude, dont ever dream to have ur own laptop if u are not prepared to lose it..wut?

i'm boReEEeEEddDddDDd

just like a monkey in a zoo
a bird in a cage
a kitten in a box

argggGggGhhhhh

i can stay silence wherever i am at
but at a condition NOBODY disturb me
but it seem evrybody very so taking care of me
even i watch tv with bare foot they will mad at me
what have i done to u??
just pretend i'm not here larrrr!!
no need to mind on my business

soooOoO,

STEP BACK!!!!

MoNey IS eveRyThinG!

Money..mOney..moNey



previously i have taught to use money wisely,not to be soo money maniac,n to be good in dealing with money..huh??



sum say money isnt everything..money cant buy anything??

is it true??

i dont think so..



money can buy sumone's happiness

with the money everybody seems to be so happy

and they will love each other MORE since their money also MOREEEST..haha



i came from not so poor family neither so rich

some say i hav a wealthy family

but i dont think so
the money is not belong to me.the money belongs to my parent

i'm just an ordinary kampung girl who alwaiz depend on my parents income each month..so dont be so sure to call dis author a wealthy girl..

because sumtime dis girl happened to be poorer than bargainer

hAte U Bitch

Hav U ever Feel so dumb when u r trying to be nice to sumone but they simple just treat u as a rubbish..

hey bitch, i just wanna help u..but u treat me like a bargainer..what the fuck..i hate u pig.

i really do

i had experienced it many time..i cant stand anymore
u even make it as nuthing happen when u r so damn in touble

ur face will turn to shit n beg me to help u

but i am not dat shit which simply ingnore u bitch!

dats y i hate myself

i hate the way i simply forget sumtin which i really had to remember it till i DIE!

i hate it very much BITCH!

i hate u monkey!

A Site for the moron

WWW.GOTOHELLUMORON.COM

Judge a BooK By Its Price

Today I would really like to story about my uncles n aunties..

my mum comes from a poor family which live in Kedah..my granddad had 4 wife n her last wife is my grandmum..my grandmum have 10 children..can u imagine how much children of my grandad??my mum is the oldest one..she have 3 sister and 6 brothers..her sisters which i calls mak ngah, mak ndak n mak su is very good polite women..they are so lovely as a mom for their child and also as an auntie for me..

the big problem or mess is actually my uncles' wife...there are 5 of them since my last uncle hav not married yet..as a fact, all of my uncles' wife which i called them 'hipo' comes from a very good family..they are very Islamic which their scarf neva low than their hip..

but as u know, dont judge a book by its cover

they are so good in Islamic perspective but so So SO bad in behave..they like to talk behind others back..they will create a super duper girls power when this 5 hipo sit together..they will talk about their neighbours husband which flirting with other women, they talked abut their student who had no virgin, they talked about their frens acting cool front but bad behind,and even they talk about my MUM who is simply giv permission to my dad for getting married with other women..they dont even talked about others but they also talked about their own family!!!how can i respect them as the senior citizen??

i'm not very good girl...i know it..but to make this hipo as my role model that is sumtin bullshit...as u know like father like son..but i have to change it..like mother like daughter..u know wut??their children followed their behavior exactly like their mother..talk nice front , bad behind our back...

my family actually have a big body especially my sibling...our figure is bigger than others..so dat we are alwaiz called as fat family anthem...

so to make it as a story, their children are very rude to us..they called us fat fat fat!..they even say that they dont want to b like us when they are bigger soon..

wut did we do to them??did we wrong by having a big body??did we killed anybody if we r fat??we dont even disturb them..they are only 13years old which i thought they will to be a good children when in their age.they are supposed to play sum stupid funny game just like a barbie's house,play some traditional game...but they neva do..all they do is STEALING my cheap make up dat they seems to bother it when saw me touching up my face..dat moment they will definitely act as angelic child ever!!but when they hav got wut they want they simply called us as FAT FAT FAT again..

stupid child!!
i hate them!
i wanna killed them if only killing is legal!!
but 1st i will killed those hipo who have giv birth to those useless kids

but i am actually realized dat it is not really surprising..
because by just look at their mum u will correctly guess what will their child would look like..

but caution!!
by just looking once, u will see the angelic side of those hipo
but if u look twice u will got wut i mean

Things i Hate abOut mYsElf

i hate myself..

i hate the way i look

i hate my face which is very dummy look when i'm not smile

i hate my nose coz it is like a hole in a golf field..(it is actually becos of chicken pox..fuck it!)

i hate my stomach which is getting bigger n bigger each day

i hate foot because it is too big.. had a very difficult situation when it comes to choosing a shoes that fit me

i hate my double chin because it make me feel very gloomy especially when i am very mad n hav to turn my face into an ugly TOAD!

i hate my hairy leg,hand,and anywhere which i feel like an org utan wearing a ring..

i hate my eyes becos i had to wear glasses due to my lense increase so damd quickly and my face will look mo scarier if i wear glasses!

i hate my butt because it is bigger than usual..it makes me hard to buy a new jeans

i hate my ear because it did not function very well.sumtime my fren make funny on me becos this prob...they even hav to speak louder in order to announcing dat they are actually talking to me?!

to put it simple

I HATE MYSELF

sum of u might angry becos i never appreciate what GOD have giv me..but this is only wut i feel..i'm not a kind of plastic surgery person..so dont worry...
this hatred will alwaiz happened to sumone like me..

I Love U Babe!

I love u dear...
i neva thought dat i will finally meet u..
i neva met anybody dat i knew from a site..
but with u i hav a strength cos i really want to see u..

my fren also mad at me becos i didnt tell them dat i have u
but i fell shy
before i met u i couldnt even say that i'm in love
becos i'm afraid dat i might lost u
i'm not a kind of howt girl dat every men dream about
i'm just a not good looking person with not even have a pretty smile

therefor when my fren happened to be very clever in reveal my secret
she finally discover dat i'm in love
but that is when we r not meet
maybe if i said the truth to her dat u r my cyberlove, she might think im such a girl with low standard which easily fall for dis cyber love
to cover it
i had said to her dat i've met u
i feel very bad in cheating my own fren

tika..i'm sorry
i didn't mean to lie to u
i'm very shy n feel so dumb if i said i have a cyberlove
hopefully u r not getting mad
i'm truly sorry

finally we r decided to meet
we meet at putrajya 8may 2008
we both feel so shy and a lil bit uncomfortable
like talking to stranger
but even u r shy than me u try ur hard to talk to me
i'm really happy
becos i had a a good feeling dat u still love me
even i'm not as pretty as u imagine

i'm really happy when u text me even more than usual
it just show me dat i'm too much worried dat our relation might broke after we met
u r so sweet darling

u accept me as who i am
u r too good to me
i'm so happy dat god still love me
God give me such a nice person to become my life partner

i'm more happy when each day u r telling me dat u want me to be ur wife
even u simply get mad if i refuse to make our engagement earlier
u know wut babe??nobody ever want to get married to me even he is my hubby
even my ex didnt really serious in our relation
but u r somone differ from them

I LOVE U DEAR

I LOVE U SO SO SOoooOOOoo MUCH

The StaBBer

AfTer all,This posT wiLl Tell U a StORy abouT a baD Back stabBer EvEr

she is cool..hawt..pretty i guess..n very childish..she make others laugh and she is so attractive..
her name is along...

1st my impression to her is dis girl might be so arrogant..but she is really cool.she treat other as equal..i've started to like her..i love to hang out with her..

but as a human she still have a bad side of her..very2 bad...

talk nice front, talk bad behind

to create a good combination..this girl now very much close to ayu which i've mentioned in the previous post..they are good together..but u know wut..when 2 loser n stabber together they will create a disaster..

but i'm still good to along..i've text her if i had a hot story dat i think it will be hawt to share with her..even i've reveal dat i hate ayu..i hate the way she is..i hate her style..i hate her bf..i hate the way she behave...to put it in a nice sentence.i simply hate ayu..

u might mad at me why i'm so dummy to tell this shit to along who is very get along with ayu..but as a turn, along also have reveal her secret dat she hate ayu also due to very same reason as me..the reason y along is good to ayu because it might be sad to ayu if nobody wanna be with her..so as a deal, along reveal dis story..

but i'm really shocked..

shes proudly say to me dat she had tell ayu dat i really hate her..she tell ayu everything..did she out of her mind??yes i very think so..i ask her whether she told her part too??do u know wut she say??

'no,i'm not telling her my part becos it might hurt ayu a lot'

i just erk wut??wut the fuck..she told my part but she hide her part..
is it wrong to call this girl stabber??
am i wrong??

shes just lost one of her frens trust who is ME!!

i will neva tell her any story ANYMORE.

sumtime i wonder y this girl neva faced any bad circumstances..y shes so lucky..shes rich..good looking..perhaps pretty..is it fair???

SimPly lOser!!

I'm suck
why am i not accepted to join dat club..i've try my bes to come to this club...i've drop so many hope to be in this club..but nobody seems to know it..am i invisible??

no dear.. u just a kind of wat they so called it??huh loser

loser
loser
loser
loser

arghh!!!this keep running,screaming on my head..

why..why..why

dis is happened when u put too much hope in a things but at the end u get nuthing..sumetime i ask myself,did i worth all this???did i deserve all of this kind of punishment...

what did i do??
im just like a loser dat still live in some kind of loser mansion....

y am i still hoping huh..dear, u just too dumb to get any offer..even the losers will think twice to accept u...maybe if any room dat will suit u better, dat will be a 'go to hell loser' room...

Here Come The Next ToP person

Huhu her name is ayu..in malay, ayu give us the meaning of very polite girl just like a village girl...

but reality is harsh

a girl who has a name of ayu doesnt really show her politeness anymore...she is very ungrateful person with less consciousness about others...even to her fren..she happened to be so good n clever person before..she is soft heart person..but her heart is very easy to touched...whenever somebody faultly said sumtin wrong she will easily go six feet under to disappeared herself..so dat, as the consequence nobody seems to be happily more than a month to be near her....

but sumone hav decided to pretending like ayu is just like the others..she treat ayu as she treat others..but this ungrateful ayu is really ungrateful...she hurt this precious fren..she hurt her everyday..she neva know her precious fren had so much preasure from day to day by her...

ayu is really not a good fren..when she hav a boyfren shes easily doomed her fren away..she is so proud dat she has a bf..her bf is everything..her bf is her sunshine...her life..her soul...

did she ever think her fren since she is in love..

exactly no..

but when it come to the problem..if shes in trouble,the 1 who she will extra cautious 1 is her fren who have been doomed by her be4...

and finally this precious fren reach her limit..she cant stand her anymore..she just take care about her ownself..after all she realized this ayu neva grateful for her existence..

so bye2 to ungrateful ayu..she desearved this...

A sTory AboUt a littLe gIrL Good Old Day

OnCe Upon a Time thErE was A little girl dats not so good looking with the soft tenderness heart dat is so innoncent...neva know the meaning of stressful, problem or even she neva know what is life is all about...

she never realized dat there is a cruel life waiting for her just in a second but only if she enter DAT zone...once she enter the zone everything will be upside down...she will hav a fren which will stab her back...a fren which will play nice in front but telling shit behind..a fren who lead her to the bad side..

finally she enter the zone without her noticed..she happened to be so nice be4 but changed to be so revengeful girl..poor little girl..she will be cheerful sumtime but drastically turn to sumone who are very scary..even worst dat hitler..she is also hate her ownself..she hate her style...hate her look..hate her way of thought..hate her life..she just hate EVERYTHING...

but she is so lucky..she have 2 good fren which alwaiz support her whenever she need sume advice to bring her back...this 2 fren neva know the meaning of boredom.they alwaiz make her happy with their fresh joke..with their love she alwaiz feel comfort..sumtime she will make this 2 poor fren hurt with her..but this 2 fren neva blaim her..they still continue to love her the way she is...they r so lovely..thank god u have create such a lovely creation for me to become their fren...

as others, i have my own family..my fierce dad..my soft mom..my childish sis,my not so cool brother n my lovely 2nd sister..they are so supportive especially in term of my academic...im happy to be in dis family but sumtime i feel really stressful if sumtime i will be the one to be blaimed for everything...it happen to be everyday..the only way to comfort myself only the tears..tears...tearss....

urm i think dats all for now..i spend 2 hours to write dis blog becos it is fresh from the inside...

Lets Start From The Top

wUuuuuu top Model!!

Hahhah her Name Is Just Sya...aT 1st She is ReallY a GoOd Fren With Lot of Love..She is A LiL bit sHy wiTh a Lot of tenderness..she also good in academic..we r happy together since we hav shared many sweety candy memory..we have a lot of things in common..we stay happy together until when it comes to a day which i really milly shocked with her culture shock..

she happened to tremendously show her wild attitude proudly to me...starting with the her attitude which is very crazy to hansome guy..which i thought all of her handsome guy dat she ever mentioned to me not really handsome..even NOT attracted me to even look at once...everytime when she saw cute guy which not so cute, her eyes will start to extralarge in a size of triple XL..and she will automatically followed dat guy until dat guy happened to realized dat she is exist!!and she will try very hard in making her face as cute as possible..which is like a toad met its husband flirting with others cute toad..

she is very weird fren..she will show her stupid feeling to her fren...whenever she feel she wants to get marry..she will give me a a msj dat she think it is COOL which only written 'i'm happy', 'lets get married', 'i love him'...wut the fuck...i know most of u will say y not?maybe she feel really happy and want to show the expression to her fren..yeah that right but this STUPID MSG not just only once in a year..but it is once a day!!!imagine wut will i reply to dis stupid fucking msg??i'm tired of dis fucking mess girl...

So as a solution i have broke our frenship with a tears..dat stupid girl had make me cry in public with her unmatured thought...i try to correct her..but she refused..she still wanna stand on her side..so bye2 my fren...u r out of my head....

the story not just end here..after i dont really remember how many month, she finally woke up from her dream and realized dats all her fault..she try her hard to apologies to me...we even make a stupid drama in public when she try to comfort me but i refuse..i really feel fucking ashamed...

as u know, i am a bad girl dat always wanted a revenge...so that is almost imposible for me to 100% wipe out all the hatred dat i have collect to just only accept a 2 simple word..i'm sorry...huh..dats so lame..i hate a person which alwaiz use i'm sorry..it just like have robbed a bank and all of the money hav being used n after get caught u just say sorry...did u think ur apology will easily accepted???

The answer is NO!

The Bad INtrO aLways Come 1st

jeng jeng..this is my 2nd blog ever..i need to make this blog due to i have to respect others feeling..my blog seems not to be private anymore since those kind of bullshit happened to be my frens be4...so since it is not nice to call sumone bullshit in a innocent blog like my previous blog therefor i need to open this blog...so dat i can freely talking shit on my on blog!!yeay clap for that...

so i will come with tremendously extreme post after dis so please..if u hav heart attack,pregnant or some kind of like fainted or vomitting sum thin or sudden shock if u saw a very2 good word so please stay back from the yellow line..cos this blog is BEYOND the yellow line..or even red line..this author might happened to use her own fucking word dat might not proper for ur kids or ur future wife/husband...

yeah a good bad intro..wink2